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02.07.04 11:08 PM
the kid thinks too much
the kid, yeah that would be me. i am a never-ending continuation of thoughts and thoughts and thoughts and thoughts, and very little action lately. i get these ideas to start writing things, be it here, or other things in my professional life. always consumed with ideas i am. they just keep swimming at me, aiming directly for my head, leaving me tossing and turning in my bed for long hours at night into the wee hours of the morning. very little sleep is had, because the thoughts persist. the thoughts eat at me.
i think therefore i am. is that it?
but what is thinking without action? i know that in zen there is this way of non doing and just letting things happen as they will. letting life unfold and become you, because you are just that. i mean what happens. that's what you are. not what you plan you are or pretend you are. that zen thing is about detachment and sitting meditation, but think about it...
this would mean that things could be accomplished with no effort on your behalf. it's just the natural order of things taking place.
hmm, so here's a thought. ok, i need to stop thinking. in becoming so consumed with thoughts, i do become non-doing, but my non-doing is an anxious non-doing. it is not the relaxed non-doing of the self fully expressed or self realized.
so i need to stop thinking and stop doing and the energies and passions will direct themselves? hmmm, i'm not so sure about this. i suppose i lack faith.
learning to let go. to let be. to see clearly. to breathe.
so what. janet jackson's exposed her right breast. missy's new video is the shiznit. eminem's ex-wife was jailed for using cocaine and violating her probation. michael jackson is not the father of his two children from his ex-wife (not lisa marie of course). the passion of christ is causing an upstir. investigators raided the office of kazaa in australia. halle berry put on a cat woman suit to wish oprah a happy b-day. so what.
non attachment. non judgment. non doing.
i don't know, this post is probably more for me than for you. i just need to write. to get the thoughts out, to get them down. to stop thinking. to get my mind clear.
tv off. book away. typing stops now.
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I'm feeling the same way. Lots to say, nothing to say about what's already been said. I'm wondering what the next incident du jour will be that diverts the attention of the US from the war in Iraq and the presidential elections. You know...the important ish.
posted by karsh | February 8, 2004 2:04 PM #
Stop thinking? Stop doing? The sun don't chill!!!
And I'm w/karsh... let's see what the next "Weapon of Mass Distraction" that the Bush Administration drums up is... like 'capturing' Saddam to divert our attention from the expansion of Patriot Act powers. What next? We got Osama, but welcome to martial law?
Oh, and Missy's new video... NICE, until she jacked K-Os' beat from "Superstarr Pt 0"... now you have kids runnin around like "that Missy beat is hot!!", not knowin' where it's from.
posted by blunted | February 9, 2004 12:40 PM #
ok let's not even mention that club/house joint called "Hot" that she jacked for the little interlude. but the video is kinda sweet.
and there are too many media diversions to get to what really matters.
on the real though, i do have to stop thinking.
posted by lynne | February 9, 2004 5:33 PM #
But that's what we do...we go between no mind and being mindful. It's just that cycle...I have the same prob, so really I'm just pontificating...all rhetorical...
Organizing the thought flo' might help. (I have 'diary journals' and 'babble journals' just to clear the clutter. babble provides permission for me to just be.
Sounds to me like you just have a busy mentality--lots of spirit and knowledge in the dome--maybe accept more? Accessorize it more? Distract it with games, justifications like this long-@ss comment I'm leavin'?
Or maybe, indeed, this is all just...babble... (puff. puff. pass...)
;)
1,
Ji
posted by jianda | February 11, 2004 8:53 AM #
sometimes i lay in bed at night, and i hear myself thinking. a million voices fighting to be heard, by one man, me. i hate those night. you toss, you turn, you grind your teeth, and usually wake up with just as many knots in your back, as voices in your head. so how do i spell relief? quiteness and meditation. now i must admit, i can't meditate very long yet. but i'm learning how to be one with "nothingness", without getting antsy.
posted by hardCore | February 12, 2004 10:20 AM #
Damn, I thought I was the only one going through this shit. What is this "non-doing" anonymous? Missy always puts out nice videos. Passion of christ can't compete with Last temptation. Upstir? How about Jesus having sex? That's controversy, kids.
posted by pexdiggy | February 18, 2004 5:02 PM #
May I suggest a book, "The Power of Now" by Eckhart Tolle.
An excerpt:
"Not being able to stop thinking is a dreadful affliction, but we don't realize this because almost everbody is suffering from it, so we consider it normal. This incessant mental noise prevents you from finding that realm of inner stillness that is inseparable from Being."
My favorite quote from this book is:
"Because we live in such a mind-dominated culture, most modern art, artchitecture, music and literature are devoid of beauty, of inner essence, with very few exceptions. The reason is that the people who create those things cannot - even for a moment - free themselves from their mind. So they are never in touch with that place within where true creativity and beauty arise...Look at our urban landscapes and industrial wastelands. No civilization has ever produced so much ugliness."
posted by 2&fro | February 20, 2004 10:20 PM #
Quotes are "signposts"
pointing to one direction,
it's like an individual is going to Toronto,
and he or she comes driving up to the signpost,
gets out of their car and looks at the signpost that says;
"Toronto population 2,000,000"
This person is just staring at this signpost wondering how beautiful Toronto might be and what types of people they'll meet,
what the night life is like,
if they speak french or english there,
or how dreadfull it might be,
or who might do some wrong doing to them.
What this person hasn't realized yet is that they've created an Imaginary world while staring at this sign post saying;
"Toronto population 2,000,000"
Without even knowing what Toronto is like!!!
That's complelety insane!
That's a dream!
That person is STUCK at the signpost...
but it's up to that person to let go of the fixation with the signpost
(letting go)
and experience Toronto for themselves.
Practices like meditation and other forms of spiritual exercises only point to the truth...
Many people are stuck on the possibility of experiencing NOW through these practices,
not realizing they are ALREADY here and now, so in that sense they are stuck on the meditation,
meditation is only a signpost...
don't get stuck on it...
the only truth is this moment...
and allowing things to be...
including your thoughts...
and then allow the spaciousnous of your being to shine through.
Do you want to know how important you are?
"You are here to enable the divine
purpose of the universe...
that's how important you are"
Quote from Eckhart Tolle
posted by Jontea | May 11, 2004 10:04 PM #
k-os took the beat from a 90's hip hop beat. soo, its not technically k-os's beat either.
posted by bboy | January 9, 2005 5:52 PM #