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01.13.05 12:04 AM
sick and tired of being sick and tired
my next post was supposed to be some reactionary statement to that greg tate hip hop turns 30 piece, or at least to all the blogs that were referencing the piece. but to be quite honest, i'm over it.
anyone who read my conversation with corey or who has been following my little space here in this web universe since day one, in 2001, knows my views anyway. but something much more interesting to me came to the fore recently in this conversation that Candicissima (aka kittypower) had with Jay (aka hiphopmusic). it kind of reminds me of that piece i once wrote for drylongso :Imagining a Gender Neutral Black Male/Female Relationship.
you see, i realize that my voice or any other female's voice often gets lost in what has been dubbed the hip-hop blogosphere. but, truth be told, i do not write a hip-hop blog, i write about what moves me - and that's mainly music and technology, and being a black woman issues relating to my blackness or my womanhood are always going to be tackled here. this writing space is about my life — what i live, what i feel, what i think. no popularity contest here. no trying to find myself. i'm going to say what i mean and what i want, whenever the need arises.
but i've noticed that these hip-hop blogs (or even these political blogs) end up being a testosterone fest, fueled often by competition and of course the outshowing of who has the most knowledge of any given particular subject. most women just don't waste their energies in this type of atmosphere. and i'm not saying i'm different than most, and i can't even speak for them, but...
if you hear me, you hear me, and if you don't you don't. if you respect me, you do so because of who you believe i am (lord i hope it's not b/c of my so-called accomplishments - 'cuz in the grand scheme of what's wrong with our patriarchial culture those things add up to naught).
there's no point i'm stressing here. just a feeling i'm developing from observing this blog culture and that conversation i read that got me off on a lot of tangents here. lots of them.
i could boast and have you peep my hip-hop card, 'cuz it can never be revoked no matter how old i get and no matter if i'm ever not down with the music. i'm going to only say these things once - and only once. regardless if the fellas aren't feeling me or if they are, no one can ignore that i know what i'm talking about when it comes to hip-hop (and that's whether you want to call it old skool, mid skool, or new skool) as i've told you before, my history runs deep. but just like my history, i find my position in this space to present challenges at times. sure there are probably a lot of females out there discussing hip-hop music and culture on the web, but they haven't been invited to join the select cadre that seems to exist. and often i wonder, if i did not work where i work, or hadn't written x amt of articles over the years, whether anyone would be checking for this female voice either.
again, this is nothing new to me. i've been the lone b-girl down with the male crew since day one. since back in the bronx when chicks pushed me to the front of the dance circle b/c i could dance as good as or better than the b-boys. from when i first took an interest in DJing, and was the only lass studying with one of the great cutmasters — DJ Whiz Kid (who i'm told taught Jazzy Joyce). from whence i ran with project kids who taught me to tag and make markers. to emceeing as the only female in a male troupe as both a youth and as an adult (and poetry performance project based in BK), to being the only honey in editorship at a hip-hop publication back in the 90s. been there, done that. i'm not looking to be this single female voice that speaks for the female view in hip-hop culture, just b/c of where i've been, who i've known, or what i've done. but i've noticed that cats ain't checking for or seeking out other dimes to tell their stories.
maybe it's got to do with nature or nurture. women are known to be thinkers, thinking before they speak, and males often blurt out what's on their minds before they even check their rhetoric. so they're (women) not speaking up when these conversations arise, or maybe they are, but their voices are getting lost b/c dudes seem to only acknowledge other dudes. this definitely has me wondering whether the female voice is even respected in these kinds of conversations.
and so i guess in some way, this brings me to the greg tate piece. i'm not nostalgic about hip-hop past. i pretty much lived it, and i'm not the only one who has. what i do know is that hip-hop's evils are endemic (if i may use that word) of America's evils. we can't just point the finger at hip-hop when we have these discussions about the apathy of youth, or misogyny. hip-hop is a culture borne of American culture. they go hand-in-hand. yet, the hip-hop i know, came out of a need to make a way out of no way, not for profit or gain. it was a creative force, founded on the pillars of dance, graf, emceeing, and djing, as a response to innner-city struggle - the modern-day inner city blues. what the emcee rapped about was not always so pretty, though there was a lot of party and bullshit and of course boasting, but often it was the grand story of inner city plight. i'm not knocking today's hip-hop, and like some of my contemporaries who do, i never will. many of today's MCs still master that and still tell those kinds of stories. they don't glorify, yet they've earned money off of telling it and so they tell more of it, be it true or not, be they far removed from it or not. the commodification and transnational aspects of the music (industry) itself have dictated what sells and what doesn't. how come ain't no one taking viacom or interscope to task for this? guess 'cuz it's easier to point the finger at the minstrel player shucking and jiving for his piece of the American pie.
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"And it seems to me that if the Negro represents, or is symbolic of, something in and about the nature of American culture, this certainly whould be revealed in his characteristic music." - LeRoi Jones, Blues People
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So I get the argument. What is this music being produced, largely by black bodies, saying about the black self as a whole?
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"...the reaction and subsequent relationship of the Negro's experience in this country in his English is one beginning of the Negro's conscious appearance on the American scene." - LeRoi Jones, Blues People
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Clarence "Pine Top" Smith was one of the earliest pianists to record a boogie-woogie" piano solo. His 1928 tune "Pine Top's Boogie Woogie" was the first recording to be labeled as such and and had a great deal of influence on all future pieces in that style.
"I want you to pull up on your blouse, let down on your skirt, Get down so low you think you're in the dirt...
Now when I say "Boogie!" I want you to boogie;
When I say "Stop!" I want you to stop right still...
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Nelly was born Cornell Haynes Jr. in St. Louis, where he encountered the street temptations so synonymous with rap artists.
"I need to see you take it down to the floor/ Spread your wings, if you real, ma, fly real low/ Pause for a second ma, grind real slow/ And if you do it right/ All day we'll go...
I don't see nothin wrong/ Drop down and get your eagle on"
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So I suppose at this juncture it's not ludicrous to ask whether black music has evolved or not. Or whether today's black music truly represents the "black experience" in America. A long time ago on the afrofuturism listserv — exploring futurist themes, sci-fi imagery and technological innovation in African diasporic technoculture — I once asked, "If i am black and you are black and we share not an experience between us, then what is "the black experience?"
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I did say that I was going to go off on a lot of tangents didn't I? And I've probably asked a lot more questions than I've answered or left a lot of open holes. And I've probably drawn no conclusions. I may even get smashed for this post. But at least I'm saying my part.
If the profiteers of this music you hip-hop heads love so much, continue to make the same kind of music over and over again (and you continue to praise these efforts), then perhaps you don't want to see them evolve as people or as artists. And if Jay-Z is one of the artists that you feel really represents this music, then think about what Elizabeth Mendez Berry observed in a Voice piece (also published in Da Capo Best Music Writing 2004) from 2003...
"Now, after nine studio albums and undisclosed millions in revenue, Jay-Z says he's retiring from rap. He claims that he's no longer inspired by the hip-hop world, but the content of The Black Album and his contemplative conversational tone suggest that he isn't just bored by what other people are doing—he's bored by the alter ego he's outgrown. The risk-averse rapper calculates, however, that it's the smooth criminal the public has fallen for—the reason he can sell athletic footwear without a jump shot—and he's not about to jeopardize his financial future. Instead, he's doing his best to preserve the myth for posterity."
and of course you remember Ta-Nehisi Coates, "Keepin' It Unreal..."
"At its core the hubbub around Get Rich and the return of gangsta rap is crack-era nostalgia taken to the extreme. Imagine—articulate young black men pining for the heyday of black-on-black crime. Like all nostalgia, neo-gangsta is stuck in history rather than rooted in current reality. The sobering fact is that the streets as 50 presents them, brimming with shoot-outs and crack fiends, do not exist."
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Now I'm not at all offering that hip-hop is dead, but something is definitely afoot here. And y'all gotta' admit that a lot of mediocre shit is getting peddled as hip-hop proper (make that gospel).
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Well said, Lynne. There's lots to consider here. I'll be back.
posted by Jason T.
| January 13, 2005 2:52 AM #
overall, i got one word for this post: bravo
i wish i could say more...but deadlines await. every single little boy with a crazyass (no homo) sig taking up stupid bandwidth on allhiphop.com needs to subscribe to your blog.
posted by Cheryl | January 13, 2005 9:13 AM #
Knowning you for a little bit, you've mentioned this before. Let's hope this sparks more MEANINGFUL discussion. Like JT said, you gave us more than a mouthful to chew on.
posted by ej
| January 13, 2005 9:42 AM #
Give it tooo 'em Lynne,
What a well put article - and it has morphed from a blog entry to an hip hop article - which is fire. I love it when you school these kids on your hotness.
I may need to re-read this just to gleam a few points.
posted by rocka | January 13, 2005 9:55 AM #
Damn, you went there on this post, Lynne. Lots of stuff to think about. I especially like whe you ask "whether black music has evolved or not" and " whether today's black music truly represents the 'black experience' in America". It's got me to thinking maybe hip hop IS a true representation of the black experience and its values. Perhaps it's MY values that have changed.
posted by j. brotherlove
| January 13, 2005 11:08 AM #
Just to point this out- there are other female bloggers who dig into hip-hop, namely Tiffany Trott, Tiny, and Julianne Shephard.
But just like you Lynne they feel comfy vearing off into other areas of their life. Or to put it better, they speak about their life and veer into hip-hop sometimes. Is THAT a female thing?
Women seem to treat blogging like a personal journal while men treat it like mini magazines.
posted by Hashim
| January 13, 2005 11:09 AM #
Thank you Lynne.
posted by Trent | January 13, 2005 12:31 PM #
I love this post and I've been saying the same thing. I find it kind of strange and occasionally interesting how so many blogs are goal-oriented -- they're going to show you that they have their pulse on music/culture/latest fads/styles/etc and get that linkage. I remember some controversy a few months back where there was blog beef because someone got dropped from a blog roll. Please! I like to say often mine is just about whatever randomness popped in my head at the moment. I'm always surprised that someone I don't know might be interested because my imagined audience is me and my old friends wondering what's up with me. Is there a *generalization coming* gender split? Somebody should mine an article out of this! But, I'd naturally like it to be me. :)
posted by Candicissima | January 13, 2005 1:28 PM #
"If i am black and you are black and we share not an experience between us, then what is "the black experience?"
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I've been longing for this type of writing. I often check in to see what you are saying. That quote is so powerful. I don't know if we will be able to answer that question, especially when many are creating fictional alter-egos to portray in music. I also appreciate how you incorporated Leroi Jone's book in there as well. It does appear as though the female voices are being muffled, but I'm hearing you loud and clear.
posted by cee | January 13, 2005 3:18 PM #
There's a lot that goes with how we define our sites.
I don't consider my site a blog, really (I'm not often simply linking to other parts of the web as the traditional weblog definition requires) and am more of a diarist who sometimes blog. And 99% of the time, I write as if my blog lives in a vacuum. It's been a long time since I've used my site as a way to rebut some other blog. I will use it as a way to do essay or critical writing without having to seek a publisher but I don't much get in the conversations, I don't think.
I don't have the time. And, really, I rarely find it fruitful because people are all coming from such different levels of knowledge and there isn't an even playing field for the discourse.
This ain't the discussion section of your hip hop 101 class at the college, you know?
Which is why I think for my purposes, if I am going to write a piece that others are talking about I don't address their individual points but only write from my vantage point and then link to the other discussions without giving them more or less weight.
I don't want to be in the pissing match.
posted by Jason T. | January 13, 2005 4:08 PM #
well damn lynne, what don't you do!? i must say that i do like when you go on these tangents of yours... this is some nice stuff here. something that WILL make these young hip hop heads think! i appreciate this one girl. keep it up!
peace
posted by sincere | January 13, 2005 9:01 PM #
I guess I treat my blog like a mini-magazine because of my past work-related experience as an editor for magazines and websites.
I don't treat my blog like a personal journal because (1) I don't get personal -- even in my private life, which may explain why I don't have a girlfriend. (2) None of my readers care about my personal life -- which is perfectly fine with me. I only get personal when I need to be. My private life is boring anyways, I don't need to post about it.
So, in turn, I write about my first and true love, music. I post about hip-hop because -- as corny or cliche as this sounds -- it's the soundtrack of my life. And as corny as this sounds -- hip-hop defines who I am. The way I dress, the way I write, the way I think and some of my belief systems are based on hip-hop. Yes, The Good, The Bad, The Misyogny, The Bullshit that is filtering in hip-hop I embrace them to the fullest. Like I wrote before, hip-hop is not a perfect culture, and rappers can't be our heroes.
So when Gregg Tate -- whom I consider the godfather of hip-hop journalism (along with Bonz Malone and others) -- pens a eulogy for hip-hop, essentially he's telling me that I'm dead. And that's a scary feeling for me, and right now, I'm trying to fight for my life. Gregg has nailed the coffin shut; buried me with dirt and I'm still kicking around in the casket, you know what I'm sayin'??!!?? (Like that scene in Kill Bill, Vol. 2 where Uma Thurman is being buried alive in the coffin with a flashlight. That's me. Noooooo!)
So I'm very thankful when I read brilliant essays on hip-hop by Lynne, hardCore, Jason T., O-Dub, Jay Smooth and the rest of the diarists. I feel like I can breathe again. I can feel the beats and the turntable scratching once again. I can smell the spray paint and feel the spit from an MC reciting some crazy rhymes all over again.
Thanks to them, I know that hip-hop is not dead.
And it is these long-winded conversations (which have been deemed pissin' matches) on the strengths and weaknesses of hip-hop that will remind us of our own failings -- which none of us want to admit -- but it also reminds us of our great potential.
And cliche as this sounds . . .
Hip-Hop and Ya Don't Stop . . . .
posted by Trent | January 14, 2005 1:41 AM #
This fucking "having conversations with other blogs" shit is fucking bullshit.
I wish the entire blogosphere was women talking about their "black femaleness."
>I remember some controversy a few months back where there was blog beef because someone got dropped from a blog roll. Please!
Sounds like a real asshole to me.
posted by Bol | January 14, 2005 2:38 AM #
Endemic means "native". I don't think you mean "endemic". Sorry if I'm getting in the way of your self-expression through illiteracy.
posted by NACHLIN | January 16, 2005 3:32 AM #
I've been reading your thoughtful posts for close to a year now. In spaces too often littered with disposable musings, I have appreciated your thoughtful ones. As a black woman who grew up in the South as hip-hop was becoming a national phenomenon, I have a problematical relationship with it. After a while, what bothers me most is not the performers and not even the companies, but the consumers. It is the attitude of passivity that would seem to me to run counter to hip-hop as a folk art since most folk arts emphasize the masses living the art. Often, hip-hop's problems (or perceived problems) are laid at the foot of American racism, corporatism or something similar and then we just walk away from them.
I understand that blacks are not the majority of consumers of hip-hop (in terms of albums and tracks sold). Yet, we are the folks who seem to want to own it--to claim it as ours, as some part of an experience that presumably runs though our culture. We are the ones who can become sensitive to the possibilities that it will be (or has been) stolen. Too much of that claiming seems to me to be passive and defensive--protecting something as it is, instead of what it should be.
It is as if black people would deny our own agency, our own ability to change some element of our worlds. Maybe, it's a habit learned from our history, but it's one we might think about breaking.
posted by Kenya | January 16, 2005 7:23 PM #
As the winner of the 2005 Gregg Tate Debate, I would like to thank my fellow bloggers, my parents, and my housemates. Also, I would like to thank a few others: the media, for not covering anything of importance; the school system, for keeping children ignorant; and the church, for keeping the world spiritually bankrupt. Also, I would like to thank Bol, for making me look sensitive.
Oh, and if you think women have it tough in these little blogland spats, just imagine what it's like for a rich, white homosexual like Byron Crawford! My heart goes out to him (no homo;).
posted by eric | January 17, 2005 4:30 AM #
Dear NACHLIN,
Thank you for correcting my "illiteracy" as you term it. But let's truly break down the meaning of the word endemic - and since in parenths - i put in (if i may use that word) illustrates that i was using the term loosely to make a point. Though I could have used the word w/out the parenths, b/c anyone knowing the full meaning of that word, knows that it fits w/in the context of what i was writing.
And even if I incorrectly used the word, to take that one word out of my entire post to try and invalidate my entire post just further highlights what i'm trying to say here. People no longer help one another in this society, or at least in this blog space. They'd rather belittle or riducle. If you feel i'm illiterate, then please, do me a favor, do not visit here and read the musings of an iliterate person.
but anyway...
From the American Heritage Dictionary
endemic (adj) 1. prevalent in or peculiar to a particular locality, region, or people: diseases are endemic to the tropics. See synonyms at natvie. 2. Ecology. Native to or confined to a certain region. endemic n. Ecology. An endemic plant or animal.
From Merriam-Webster's Collegiate Dictionary
endemic adj 1 a. belonging or native to a particular people or country b. characteristic of or prevalent in a particular field, area, or environment 2. restricted or peculiar to a locality or region
so why is it that hip-hop's evils wouldn't be "native" to or (god forbid even of) America's evils? although that's not exactly the direction i was going in with the use of the word "endemic."
but anyway...
From dictionary.com
na·tive adj.1. Existing in or belonging to one by nature; innate: native ability. 2. Being such by birth or origin: a native Scot. 3. Being one's own because of the place or circumstances of one's birth: our native land. 4. Originating, growing, or produced in a certain place or region; indigenous: a plant native to Asia. 5. 1. Being a member of the original inhabitants of a particular place. 2. Of, belonging to, or characteristic of such inhabitants: native dress; the native diet of Polynesia. 6. Occurring in nature pure or uncombined with other substances: native copper. 7. Natural; unaffected: native beauty. 8. Archaic. Closely related, as by birth or race. 9. Biochemistry. Of or relating to the naturally occurring conformation of a macromolecule, such as a protein.
the fact that you posted w/out even a link to your email addy or website, proves that the only reason you even posted a comment was to either rile me up or disprove my argument - so, ok you riled me up given that i didn't even delete your comment
'nuff said...
posted by lynne
| January 17, 2005 2:38 PM #
"Now I'm not at all offering that hip-hop is dead, but something is definitely afoot here. And y'all gotta' admit that a lot of mediocre shit is getting peddled as hip-hop proper (make that gospel)."
Isn't this the point? Things weren't fine and dandy back in the 80's/early 90's, and yet there was still posturing going on (big cars, gold chains and such). Yet things did seem alot less innocuous to me. Call me old man, nostalgic or whateva.
posted by funkdigital FKA Metalface | January 18, 2005 12:28 PM #
This post was fantastic. Not so wild about the comments.
especially when many are creating fictional alter-egos to portray in music.
Um...are you arguing that hip-hop isn't "real" enough? The problem isn't that it isn't real, the problem is that its realness is of any consequence to us.
posted by David | January 18, 2005 4:34 PM #
So you don't get involved in testosterone feuds about who knows more, unlike men you think before you speak, yet you haven't been invited into that select cadre of hip hop bloggers?
posted by k. orr | January 24, 2005 6:03 PM #