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12.08.03 10:05 PM
burnt out
As if you haven't guessed by now, I'm on hiatus, again, for the umpteenth time. I have a whole new site designed, and yet I'm still not motivated. It's not that blogging is boring me. It's not that I have writer's block. I've just spent a lot of years overworked, doing ten thousand things at once, and I think that my brain is finally giving me a sign that it needs to take a rest. I was like one of those kids in college, who was an RA, had a work study job, was editor on one of the campus newspapers, and took a full course load. I probably operated like that since I was 16. Always involved, always overstretching myself, and helping other folks out. The past year has been no different, so I'm taking a breather and rediscovering some of my passions. Trying to be healthy, and trying to live a fuller, better life. Since I'm in front of a computer all day, dealing with code and dealing with words, it's kind of hard to come home and do the same thing. So many emails to deal with. So many voice mail messages. Sometimes I just seek silence. Sometimes I can't even read words, they become a blur. I'm not saying the black superwoman is a myth, it's just not the way I have to live. Not anymore. I'm trying to find little ways to be fulfilled in my life everyday, and so...
I do want to try and find a fresh perspective for writing here. I don't want to talk about me and my life. I don't always want to talk about hip-hop. But I do want to tell stories. There's loads of them inside, bursting to get out.
I'll be around. Sooner than you think.
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and yes i mean burnt out and not burned out
posted by lynne | December 9, 2003 4:37 AM #
LOL
Girl, get you some rest. We ain't going away, neither will you.
Awaiting a big, refreshed return.
posted by ronn | December 9, 2003 5:03 AM #
"I do want to try and find a fresh perspective for writing here. I don't want to talk about me and my life. I don't always want to talk about hip-hop. But I do want to tell stories. There's loads of them inside, bursting to get out."
How uncanny. I was just telling someone that very same thing. I think I've just about told everything I'm going to tell about my life. And unless I find a new way to talk about it, I'm trying some new things (like posting stories/poems more often).
And I also was that undergrad who was taking a full course load and involved in about 3 or 4 extracurriculars at a time.
Take a minute for yourself. Like Ronn said, we'll be here!
posted by Anitra | December 9, 2003 1:24 PM #
you know how we roll. do your thang.
posted by e j | December 9, 2003 7:07 PM #
thanks nitra..fact of the matter is...i been rolling on overload for 15+ years now...so it's definitely time to pump brakes.
posted by lynne | December 10, 2003 2:29 AM #
i understand. i'm feeling somewhat the same. and am in the process of changing my site and acquiring my own domain. i know you got to take care of you but i'll be patiently waiting for your return.
posted by Darni | December 10, 2003 5:58 AM #
Good to listen to your brain before the body forces you down..... it's no crime to be incognegra for a while... remember 86,400 seconds per day is all we each get... take some of that to re-energize yourself and continue to be happy.
posted by Bernard | December 10, 2003 7:04 PM #
hey lynne. we'll be waiting for your return in what ever fashion you see fit.
posted by kvn daily | December 14, 2003 9:07 PM #
take your time baby, we will be here when you get back.
posted by james | December 18, 2003 7:56 AM #
I'll also be around. When we met at the Raphael Saadiq show, you mentioned doing the job of three people. So, it's clear that you should rest. Hit me when you get a breath. Peace & Love.
posted by Rachel | December 24, 2003 9:45 PM #